in vain

In vain

I try hard

To make sense of life

To wake up each morning

With some expectations

But in my effort

Nothing suffices

I try hard

To smile genuinely

Without hidden agendas

Hatred or malice

But my eyes reflect

The depth of all

To live with love

But I was never

Lucky In love I was always

On the losing side of it

Always the fool

That took all the bull

To love life

But life always threw me

A backhand

Life was never fair

Now I walk with

My head bowed

And suffice it to say

I try no more

For all was in vain.